January 14, 2012
One Year Gone
I've made peace with the fact that I wasn't with my grandma when she passed. I carried that guilt with me for a long time, and something happened last year that let me know she doesn't hold it against me, and that she's always with me. I can't tell you how comforting that is.
There's still times when I can't stop the tears, but mostly, I remember her with a smile. And she's really not so far away... I see her in my sisters and mother. They're generous and loving, just like she was. Plus my mother bugs me about having babies, just like she did :) They say you can't choose your family... I couldn't have chosen any better if I'd done it myself.
Ma, I love you, I miss you, I wish you could be here but I know you're in a better place now. Thanks for watching over all of us, and I'll see what I can do about the babies... Just be patient, okay?
You too, Mum :)