I've come to a decision: I'm not going to take any more custom orders. After I finish my current list of custom orders, that's it. Maybe for a little while, maybe for always. We'll see.
I just want to go back to making quilts that are on MY to-do list. My stash keeps growing, and I've earmarked most of the fabric for projects that I never seem to have time for because I'm always making someone else's quilt. And I'm not complaining. It's a wonderful 'problem' to have. I've loved working with people to create quilts that'll live with them, but the dread has started to seep in, and I feel less enthusiastic every day. Plus it really stinks that when we go away on holiday, all I can think about is that I'm not home, working on a quilt for whomever.
It occurred to me that I was completely burnt out when I would go days and days without wanting to touch anything in my studio. I would go in there and poke at a couple of things and then walk out. I had to force myself to finish quilts because nothing I was doing was exciting me a whole lot. Sure I make things that I like, but it's frustrating not being able to do things you want. Instead I end up making the same thing over and over and over. That's my fault, for agreeing to do it. But it's also my fault if I let myself continue down this path that might lead me to not want to sew / quilt anymore.
My life. My rules.
And while I'm at it, can I just say that I love you guys. It continues to amaze me that you read what I write. I appreciate every comment, every email and you will never know what it means to me. And every time someone says hi in person, it's a giant thrill (I become a blithering idiot but that's half the fun, no?). I'm not the same person I was when I started this blog three years ago and I thank you for coming with me on this journey.
Alright. That's enough mush. Ahem.
I'm excited. I'm excited to do all the little projects I've promised my family and friends. I'm excited to be able to shake the little ideas from my head and let them come to fruition. Or just to be able to experiment! I'm mostly just excited to be able to be excited about everything I make again. No more dread. Life's too bloody short.
Ahhh I feel lighter just putting that into words :)