December 13, 2011
A Time To Remember
I won't be writing one to my grandmother this year.
I miss her so much. I cried when it hit me, not just because she's no longer with us. She was in a great deal of pain on Christmas Day last year but didn't say a word because she didn't want to ruin everyone's Christmas celebrations. That's the kind of amazing person she was.
(Sorry to be a Debbie Downer.)
Anyway, of course I'll miss my grandma but I take comfort in knowing she'll be with us while we celebrate Christmas. I've stopped asking myself what if she'd said something... what if she'd been taken to the hospital sooner... what if, what if, what if. It'll only drive us all crazy, wondering about things you can't change. And she definitely wouldn't want us to ruin what should be a joyous time with what ifs.